Saturday, June 16, 2007

Done

"it" has been done. I do not feel peace. I am not proud of myself. I miss my dude, my constant companion, my agility champ. I promised him that I would heal him. I could not.

I hope that there is a heaven, where he will find peace and loving hands. I wish him a light heart and kind words in his ears. I wish him that dock to sleep on, watching the water that I had promised him so long ago. I wish him peace.

I fear that I have betrayed his trust in me

6 comments:

Donna said...

I wish I could think of something comforting to say. I could see by past entries how hard you tried, how much more effort you put into caring for him, so much more than others would. I do think he has finally found a peaceful place.

Kathy said...

((((hugs)))) You did all that you could do. I hope he finds peace wherever he is now, and I wish the same for you.

Taz said...

((((Tara)))) Your boy knew love and now he has peace too. You did not betray him, not one bit.

stitch-dom said...

Oh hon...you'll remember him always in just that way. My thoughts are with you and I bet that wherever he is, its a much better place and he is at peace and would want you to be too. Take care...big hugs.

Lauren said...

You did the right thing and, other than betraying him, you ended his suffering and confusion. Give yourself a big hug from me.

divarita said...

Dearest Tara, we sent you a message earlier, but I want to keep giving you support. I am certain that there is a heaven and that he is there, finally at peace, because he is a child of God and God will keep him with Him and he will always be with you too. He knows that you love him. I will go and light a candle for him and for all of you.
All our love, Frankie, Rita and Maggie